A step in the wrong direction...

1. Five Minutes To Midnight - Boys Like Girls

2. Come On - Josie & The Pussycats

3. Heroes get Remembered, Legends never Die - Four Year Strong

4. Molly - Sponge

5. She’s my kind of Rain - Tim McGraw

6. Ruby Sees All - Cake

7. The Doctor - Socratic

8. Don’t Let Go - Weezer

9. A Day In The Life - Mae

10. You’re Gonna Go far Kid - Offspring

11. How’s it Gonna Be - Third Eye Blind

12. You’re a Jerk - New Boyz

13. Your Smile Is a Drug - Patrick Park

14. Adelaide - Ben Folds

15. Resounding - Say Anything

kill someone, because I couldn’t.

….With my life I want to… effect people.

I forgive everyone in a quick fashion so, I don’t have anyone to forgive just now. I don’t hold grudges.

I forgive myself for not telling my mom goodbye the night that she died. I forgive myself for standing on the porch and waving because I didn’t want to go out in the rain. I forgive myself for hurting so bad and holding it in. I forgive myself for all the internal grief over not being “normal.” I forgive myself for all of the destruction. I forgive myself for not stretching more. - I have a lot of things to forgive myself for. But, I do. I forgive myself because I love myself. In order to function properly as people we have to forgive ourselves. Or so I’m learning. I’ve been working on forgiving myself for months now. (once I decided I didn’t want to be miserable anymore) It’s a long healing process but it’s worth it I think. Forgivness is just another side road on the highway to happiness. :)

My child-like, innocent, qualities. I guess. I feel innocent and child-like a lot. That’s all I have to say about this. I’m so lame. sorry.

Keep in mine that I don’t particularly “hate” anything about myself. These are my three biggest dislikes about myself.

1. I have no self confidence.

2. Bad self image.

3. I let people walk all over me.

I don’t really have much to say about any of these. They’re just personality traits that I have. I’m working on them the same way anyone works on things they don’t like about themselves. I guess. I’m learning how to do things by myself. I walk alone to campus four times a week and I’m working real hard on loving the person that I am physically. I still let people walk all over me but, I’m slowly growing a backbone thanks to my amazing fiancee. So, there.

hey tumblr. where you been? I’ve been out and around. Had a busy summer finally starting to reel myself in and get back to routine. Not back to but, falling back into a routine. A different, better, routine. I missed you blogworld. Not actually, I haven’t had time to miss anything. I’ve found happiness and love and now I feel like a whole complete person for the first time in my life. Everything is cotton candy and rainbows. :) I’m being so super serious here. Kylie and I finally got everything moved and set up in our apartment! It only took….. a month? Anyways, I will stop neglecting you Tumblr. I promise.

-Beth